Monday, July 27, 2009
{ 2:15 AM }
Well, ive not been online nowadays. Been avoiding the people. The people that i went out with and all. I just wanna be alone. Far away from this misery. I contacted some people. Like my awesome bestfriend. dada(: and my other hang out friends. haizz. This week or i think till next month i will be staying at my grandmas. Taking care of her. It gets on my nerves everytime and feeling really sad when im there. Cry all night when my grandma says, "Caca sayang nenek tak?" ..i say yes and feel so touched. Cannot leave her sight. :( My grandma is my everything. If shes gone. I think im gonna be gone with her. She takes care of me since i was just a tiny baby. Until now. My grandma has been acting crazy. I just cant stand him. :(
Problems,problems,problems..
It will never end.
You can always see that im happy and stuff. But deep down im just an emo girl finding a right path.
Im not the Lisa that i was suppose to be. Going out with wrong guys. Im gonna avoid you if i can. not contacting anyone of you. I have other things to think of. Other important stuff. If i would think of you. It will be a mistake. Because i know that you dont care the fuck out of me. Why would i care about you right?.
haizzz.
If you wanna contact me. You know my number(:
Just rang.
4 November 2009.
I wil be awaiting for your arival.
Labels: Guilt and pressure
