Sunday, September 20, 2009
{ 10:07 AM }
Firstly i wanna say.
I have been wondering for this past days. Wait. Months. I never change. Im still the same Lisa. The one who falls in love easily and made wrong decisions. I wanna make it right. Why cant you help me? . I just lost my chance in you. And now you have something to think about. Well, thats your choice. I tried my best. I did show my love towards you, sincerly. Theres so many things you dont know about me. You never ask. The only thing you do is make me sad and mad. I know you dont wanna hurt me. But why? why you do this to me? I did wrong. Im sorry. I never mean to. Your not being reasonable. Being jealous for the wrong reasons. I wanna make this happen. You gotta trust me. Im sorry okey. So sorry. If you ever think that im using you and making that you are nothing to me, thats stupid. Im not. I love you for who you are. I dont wanna make this difficult. You wanna leave me so much?. Well, i guess i wont let you do that. You can call me spoilt, irritating, stubborn and wadever. I wont let you leave me. I pushed all my past behind. For you. What?? I know im stupid. Stupid kan to fall in love like this. You say that im nothing. I 've been through heart aches and bad hair days and mostly crying at night. All because of the way you treat me. Cruel? I may say that. Curse me, call me names, say bad stuffs. Say all you want. I dont care. The way you said I Love You. It still lingers in my mind. You rarely say that to me. I Love You. I dont even know if you meean it. You say it does. But you wanna leave me. Why? I did a mistake. Im sorry. What else am i going to say? Say your last decision. I wanna know truely, if you say.... i wont regret loving you .....
Secondly
I never wanted you to talk to me. Why must you say such things?Why cant i go out with him. His human. Not shamefull. I thought you were a friend. Not even telling me the right thing. I hear lies and bad talking around me. Why? Why must you all do this to me?. Did i do wrong? Stop it. I dont wanna hear all this crap. I wanna be happy. Happy!!!!!
Thirdly
If ever this things happens in future again.
I could die standing. I will never come back and love someone else, I lost him. Im a loser for not realizing. And you're a loser for not telling. 1 second of a magical moment gone.
I dont wanna love someone else other then you. Remember that sunny.
Labels: LOVE
