Saturday, October 3, 2009
{ 10:08 AM }
I wanna start a new. Feel new breeze. Start a fresh. My previous post?. Fuck it. Its over. Im pretending that all that is just a story. Its stupid to think about that fucking thing. Im starting new. Im pushing all those problems aside and stick to the future.
Im contacting with my 2nd ex now. Been talking to him all the time. I want to stick to him. I mean only him. He knows me well then other guys. He was my true love. My first love. He teached me how to kiss. HAHA XD. He meant the world to me. Eventhough he left me in the first place,I still take it as a break. Like summer break. haha. Im starting a fresh. Im not dating any other guys. Im sticking with my ex. haha. If new guys pun,they are just my friends. No other feelings. No hugs or kisses. just a hand-shake will do. Yes!, i was a slut. I feel that way. But im not anymore.(:
Im not paranoid or insecure anymore. I dont care what you think about me. But still, Im a soft hearted and caring person. Even if you're a stranger or i just know you for 5 secs, I still care for you. Im not a revenge type of person. Im a karma will strike back kinda person. OMG. I dont think i made sense. haha. nvrm. I dont get angry easily, i dont beat you up or scold you. I talk and laugh. Thats me. If you think that im a slut or weird, thats your fucking problem. I really dont feel like entertaining these nonsense.
My 4th ex asked me, whats my requirements for a boyfriend? (asshole la he)
- Hot skinny legs. (i know im weird)
- Same interest in music, example: hardcore,electrocore bands. (a must)
- Caring,softhearted and reasonable.
- Has time for me.
- Makes me laugh eventhough he made lame jokes,i will still laugh and make him annoyed. haha! -__-
- And mostly, Love me for who i am and be there for me no matter what.
I just asked for 6 requirements. Not more. haha. But application forms or not available..so too bad. Wait till im ready. haha.
Okeyy, done with that.
I still feel guilty inside. For the guys i've hurt. Im sorry. Im really am. 2nd chance? I wont give that, but i'll be your friend till the end(:
Since im gone in your life. I feel better. This should be forever (:
Labels: A Fresh Start.