My Beloved Mother Named Me,Nur Khalisa Bte Kharil Anwar
I dropped from heaven on the 27th of October 1992
I love poetry, art, starbucks, photography, sushi , pasta
OLIVER SYKES. (haha) and Oreo..
I hardcore dancing in the living to CHIODOS
A girl who is addicted to laughing and Mr Bean soyabean ouh yahh
and orange juice. hehe(:,
haha. im feeling better.
back home.
gotta go back to my grannys tmrw again.
until everything is okeyyy(:
im reaching out to the sky for the rain to drop.
so hot tao!! -.-
i get very crankyy when its hot. i hate it.
went to geylang just now teman my granny and auntie shopping.
they say that they were at Joo Chiat Complex. (i think i spell it right)
than i got lost. -.-
i was at Tanjong Katong Complex. Rounding kat sane because i dunnoe where is Joo Chiat. Belo kn lisa (: haha.
than suddenly i remembered. haha.
30 mins later than teringat. -.-
like wth la lisa. belo nak mampus. its been like months i think, i cant remember when i went there last, so i cant remember. stm, so i have an excuse okeyyy. :p
i was like complaining all the way. bising je. because its hot and i was wearing school uniform with my big beg. damn hot la. cannot tahan lorr. haha. my grandma was like, 'bising la caca dari kecik sampai besar, tak tukar-tukar. kecik-kecik nenek tembak kau modar(die in jawa) lu.' i dont really understand at all. but i laugh. because of her expression. haha. so cute(:
than we ate at Arnolds.
i suck at cutting chicken. ter order chicken. so kene makan la
cuil cuil abit than give my granny. tak tao makan. haha. i just ate the fries with cheese. haha. went home after that. 1 hour journey back. -.-
took a bus from paya lebar to clementi. JAUH PE.
slept like a pig in the bus. i think people were starring at me. hmmm..
well, nvrm.
went home straight. too tired.
and now my back pain.
sit too long. -.-
Well, ive not been online nowadays. Been avoiding the people. The people that i went out with and all. I just wanna be alone. Far away from this misery. I contacted some people. Like my awesome bestfriend. dada(: and my other hang out friends. haizz. This week or i think till next month i will be staying at my grandmas. Taking care of her. It gets on my nerves everytime and feeling really sad when im there. Cry all night when my grandma says, "Caca sayang nenek tak?" ..i say yes and feel so touched. Cannot leave her sight. :( My grandma is my everything. If shes gone. I think im gonna be gone with her. She takes care of me since i was just a tiny baby. Until now. My grandma has been acting crazy. I just cant stand him. :(
Problems,problems,problems..
It will never end.
You can always see that im happy and stuff. But deep down im just an emo girl finding a right path.
Im not the Lisa that i was suppose to be. Going out with wrong guys. Im gonna avoid you if i can. not contacting anyone of you. I have other things to think of. Other important stuff. If i would think of you. It will be a mistake. Because i know that you dont care the fuck out of me. Why would i care about you right?.
haizzz.
If you wanna contact me. You know my number(:
Just rang.
4 November 2009.
I wil be awaiting for your arival.
I really feel lost now.
Lost hopes.
I cant push myself no more.
Im stuck in this situation where i cant go anywhere.
Im not a changeed.
Im still the same.
No difference.
Well, you make me lose.
Lost hope.
Not making an effort to do something.
Im just a doll you can play with.
haha. He is damn cute. This is my favourite video. hehe. This is a old video of his. He is damn cute and funny. And he has and awesome taste of music. Stole from his videos alot. haha. Well, ive been active in YouTube. Hearing alot of Random songs and watching alot of swiftkaratechop videos. haha. I will be known as Swiftyhyak-dushchoppychop. haha. kau! lisa fanatic pe. -___- haha.
Do you wanna know something. I have'nt got my pay yet. -________- Next week than i get my pay. Itu pun tak sure, Like WTF la. Me and Ira da bingit. Like seriously la. This is my first job seyy. And i have'nt got my FIRST pay. Like shitss.. haizz. Boredom la! I wanna go shopping. Dieing to buy new shoes because my shoes now like dying and im like dying because i have'nt got my pay. ARGH!. Stupid Company. ( I dont wanna tell you the company, if i tell later im gonna get arrested or something. )haha.
Me and Ira after a hard day of knocking doors and barked by dogs. -___-
My feelings are well kept inside.
Nobody knows my feeling except for myself.
Even if you ask.
I wont tell.
Im listening to The End by Silverstein feat Lights.
This song reminds me of you Sha***.
In this situation.
I burst out my feelings in my diary.
Where i keep all my inner thoughts and feelings.
The only one person im waiting right now.
Its you.
The person whom i call every night.
The person whom i play games with.
And the person i love before.
And still do.
like seriously. im just irritated by alot of guys. Guys who are so unfair and so cruel to girls. I mean guys broke my heart more than i could remember. I wanna settle down and have a awesome boyfriend. Thats all i ask for. But i know it takes time. Im being patient. Trying. haha!
Great day on Saturday and Sunday.
I met Ariel and Scott on Saturday and met them again on Sunday with Ijah and Deuce. haha. Had a really great time hanging out and chilling. Im in a band now. haha. Im gonna be a vocalist of a band called 'Secret incident' awesome name huh..haha. Well, here are the pictures..
=.=
Random you know me..play at the playground and briuse myself. haha. Like seriously my foot blueblack now. I dont wanna show you the picture because it looks shit. haha.
Well, meeting them soon again on saturday. Shopping i think. YEAYY!!. dapat gaji..(:
haha. so happy. hee.And Ariel is treating me. He promised. And i was forced to update my blog. =.= kau!! malas. But i did it. So yeahh..haha
Reached homme at 11:30am. =.= . I only had 2 hours of lessons. Shessh!. Pergi skola jauh jauh kat Bishan but only 2 hours of lessons. haha. Suppose to finnish at 11am but my teacher didnt come. So i went home at 10am. Walk really slow with my friends towards circle line. haha. Slept in the train. One by one my friends left me. :( Because they stay north and one at east. Bangun je sampai jurong east. haha. Nobody beside me. Luckily i woke up if not i have to repeat back. haha. As you can see, i took pictures. Camwhoring alone. Shessh!. Really bored. Not that much pictures though. haha. Alfian dwnload a game for me just now. haha. He controled my comp. move my mouse around. haha. So laggy la. haha. Now i have BLACKSHOT. haha. Play with him can die seyy. I died like 100 plus times. haha. I killed him 26 times. He killed 1000 plus people. OMG. He pro la. I FIRST TIME SEYY. Atleast i killed him. So theres something. hahaha. I really suck at playing games. But learning la. To kill my boredness. haha. Dwnloading Warcraft. hahaha. Lisa playin games. wth!. So not me. haha. I always suck at playing games. Suppose to kill the enemy but i kill my own members. hahaha. stupid sak! So belo la me.
Really.
My Heart Aches.
Its simply Because of me making mistakes.
Mistakes that i made myself.
I should'nt do that.
Or that.
Or that.
Or even that.
Or so not that.
Its simply me.
Making mistakes eventhough i know its wrong.
Pathetic.
Stupid.
Fucktard.
The image in my head is this * looking up. I dont really know why. haha
Well, schooling tomorrow. Looking forward to it. But not looking forward to see my teachers. They always pronounce my name wrongly. Sheesh. My class advisor. Instead of Khalisa, She call me Kaliza. sape entah kaliza. Mak cik die la tu. haha.
Awesome weather today. I LIKE(: cold. So chilly. If everyday like this kn best. Its like a small snow. hehe. Too bad sinagapore has no snow. If theres snow, that will be the end. Too bad near the equator. correct??. Sorry. Fail geography. haha.
The post before *looks down. Im apologizing to some people who i hurt. im sorry. Truely am. Im not starting to talk to you first. You have to start to talk to me. Im having alot of me time. So i have no time texting and on msn. Sometimes la if im not busy. Am i making sense? ,haha. nvrm la. Confuse. Well, im not as good as you think. Im a evil girl. ((: i am.
Im tired of everything. What i've become now. I wanna be the old me. The old me who is decent and loving friends. Not some girl who swears and going out with different guys. This is not lisa. The lisa i know last time, hates entertaining fucktard toads like those who ask my number randomly. Now the fucktard toads are in my contacts. Like a someone said to me yesterday, he says that he likes the old me. And the new me is like so totally different. Well, he is right. I hate myself now. The lisa now. I wanna change to the old me. And its better. No more flirting. No more going out with random guys. No more looking at hot dudes. No more texting them or calling them. They will find me if they want to. If tak nk than gasak kau la. Ihad enough of this shit. Hating guys treating me like this. Like ass tao. Ingat ape?. Im a girl who is simple to play with isit. WELL, no more okeyy.. The old lisa is back for a vengence. And i have my rights to whom i hate and love.
Now, is like you have been blocked and delete. Thats it.
No more you in me. CORRECT!
The old selenger khalisa is here. And i wanna settle down. Settle down with myself. Nobody bothers me. ME MYSELF AND I. Thats it.
Weel, im gonna delete my tagged soon. So pandai-pandai la cari me okey. If dont want to then fine. WHO CARES!
I just wanna be alone.
Think through about it. And be myself again(:
Things that i wanna do in my life now:
1. Finish my nitec course (office skills) and aim for highe-nitec course in ________ (not sure) in cck ite and go poly(:
2. Have more ME time.
3. Work my ass off and get more pay.
4. Stop talking to fucktard toads.
5. Pay more attention in my studies.
6. Be together with my closest friends.
7. Settle down with a loving boyfriend.(which i hope i can find) =.=
8. Go on a diet. haha
9. Read books. haha.
10.And STOP THINKING TOO MUCH. (Trying)
Thats it. THE OLD ME IS BACK WITH A VENGENCE (:
(Im sorry if im neglecting and being and ass now. But i need time.)
I wonder if i dissapear,people would find me. I wanna try one day. To dissapear somewhere where people cant find me. That would be cool. haha. I will be gone forever by that time. hahaha. Wierdo la me. haha. That topic just poped up from my head. haha. So its pretty random. haha. Well, nowadays.i see alot of people feeling sad. Come on!. Dont be blue. Be a rainbow!haha. Its like u shine after a downpour. Everybody should feel happy eventhough it hurts. You must always smile(: . Smile always. haha. Im trying my best to smile and be happy. I dont wanna make a unhappy face in front of my friends. Like you're unhappy about something else,dont make your friends feel the same way or like be angry at them for no reason. I always do that. Haha. I feel bad. But its my emotions. Im get angry easily and i have no patience. haha. Macam mane nak hidup ni??. hahaha. Im changing slowly. So no worries. hahaha. Well, this is random post. I wont update my blog soon because my "beloved" brother would be online. I WANT MY OWN LAPPY!. shessh. And school is starting soon. YEA!. so happy. 5 weeks of boredom. Boleh mati seyy. I wanna go school!. I think im the only one feeling like this. hahaha. Wierdo. haha. ouhk than. gtg(:
i wanted to blog this yesterday but someone using the computer. Arghh!. nevermind. i have to post this fast. Nid to go to work la babe!!. hahaha. Yesterday. I went lepak with my old classmates. hehe. All ex Tanglinians!. My bests dudes(((: hehe. Really had a great time. Away from all shits and craps. haha.
