Monday, October 12, 2009
{ 10:21 AM }
Im down. Im on the floor with my blanket. Cold. Shivering. Crying. This is the end. I dont want this to end but. ..... Im sorry...(crying). Why? agh. I cant just forget you like that. Agh. I feel theres no hope. Evrey night. I think. The way i treated you. I really do care. I care so much. I wont cry for you every night. I feel hurt. It hurts so much. It ended this way. I didnt want this to happen. Agh. I cant stop crying. Why? Because i love you deeply. I love you deeply.Im sorry. Im really am. ....... You promised. That thing. Its a mistake. Im breaking down. I dont wanna leave you alone.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?
I SAID
seriously lisa
get out of my life
kalau tk paham kan
lagi baik tkya bobal teros
I cant help but seeing this. I drop a tear. Then tears. Then my heart aches. Then i start to cry more. Why? I guess my feelings are too deep. You mean so much to me. I guess you never even realised it. Agh.
I will get out of your life. I deleted you in msn,facebok and tagged. And so as your number. I know that you wont text or call me anymore so mind as well just delete you off. Thats what you wanted. You want me to get out of your life.
Your smell,
Your kisses,
Your huggs,
And our lame chats.
I wont forget.
First meet up.
I can never forget that smile. When you kissed my hand. (crying)
Harbourfront.
Feelings grew more. I can never forget that moment we had together.
Anberlin.
One of my greatest moments of my entire life.
Sengkang.
I couldnt bare to leave you. One eyed. I cried before i go off. You wiped my tears. You kissed my forehead and that made me really .... words cant really describe how i feel. Agh. I hold your hand. I feed you. You liked Lady Gaga more then me. (: It was a awesome day. Smelling you. I miss that. Alot.
I dont know whats next.
But what i know, you wont be there for me anymore.
Will you still miss me?
Will you still love me?
I guess theres no answer to it.
Labels: Lost
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
{ 8:23 AM }
Firstly, if you see my blog like macam kene cut, than i dont know. I see it okeyy je. I dont know whats the problem. haha. Maybe its your computer or something. i dont know. Okeyy forget it. The reason im changing my link and all its because im running away. Running away from you. Yes you, you asshole. My ass 1 week lover. Wtf. I can talk to you on the phone and text you. But i dont wish to see you face to face. Im gonna slap or kick your dick. Like seriously. You say that you miss me, you say that you wish you could pinch me again. Wth!. You have her. Now you said this to me. This is stupidity. You are so being an ass. I dont know why i fell in love with you in the first place. Wasted. -___- Asshole. If you got to read this. Than its obvious that you know how i feel. I will never accept your apologies. You keep saying that you're sorry, but acually you're not. I think you're glad that you are over with me. And moving on with some other girl. Some other girl you can pinch,laugh,cuddle with. :( Im still upset about this. Im trying my best to stop thinking about you. But like wtf la. Stop calling me!! Stop showing your face on my facebook! Stop making me cry and pleaseeeeeeee stop making me think. like wtf laa!!!!. arghhhhh -_____-
Why guys like to do this to me?
Hurting me fun ehk?
Like im an alien. No feelings.
I only have 3 fingers and im green so you do this to me la.
Asshole.
IM NOT AN ALIEN!!
IM A FUCKING HUMAN BEING!
Each one. Do this to me.
I had enough.
Useless.
Secondly, okeyyy..BayBeats was awesome(: Moshed,Hardcore dancing. OMG!. Bruises on my hands and body aches. haha. A good way to release stress. haha. Punched some dudes and dudettes. haha. So funny. But end up, that Sunday made me wonder. Why Why Why???. Nevermind la. Its just a one second thing. It was magical. Thank you so much for making me feel stupid(:
Thirdly, no more working hours for me!. Overrrrrr. Done!. haha. No more sorrows. haha. My time now is to have fun and study. I cant work. Working time for me is when im done studying and lazy to have fun. My mother said..'cha-cha nie terlalu manje, tak boleh kene sikit,kene marah dengan manager abeh nangis.' Well, i am. So yeahh. Im not a mature person. Not yet i guess. Im still living in Kiddy Land. -___-
I know myself well. So yeahh. haha
ish ish ish. Am i worthless?
Labels: Lost
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
{ 9:26 AM }
I really feel lost now.
Lost hopes.
I cant push myself no more.
Im stuck in this situation where i cant go anywhere.
Im not a changeed.
Im still the same.
No difference.
Well, you make me lose.
Lost hope.
Not making an effort to do something.
Im just a doll you can play with.
Hopeless and Dissapointing.
You broke my heart.
Emptyness.
I wanna be away for some time.
See if you care.
I dont think so.
crying...
Labels: Lost
